(originally published 11/16/15)

We hold onto things because we think that they are serving us.  And by things I mean: concepts, ideas, stories, thoughts, beliefs and emotions. 

That is the only reason. We think they are serving us.

Emotions are thoughts and thoughts are energy. They are supposed to move through our minds undisturbed. That is the system. But we keep them in place when we innocently try to figure them out or judge them or control them or intervene in some unnecessary way.

I notice I have emotion I want to hang onto quite a bit and wanted to get to the bottom of it because obviously for some reason my mind thinks this is serving me in some way. Somehow keeping me “safe” from something. I’ve gotten a little smarter than that these days so I decided to get really honest with myself I asked myself, “Why am I afraid of just having these thoughts and emotions just move through and move on?”

I realized that I’d be afraid there would be no “me” anymore if I didn’t hold onto any thought or emotion. (I mean really think about that!)  Who would I be without my thoughts and emotions staying?  I’d have no story, no beliefs without that. I wouldn’t have an identity or even a past.  Would the identity and life history of “Jamie Wozny” cease to exist? It’s all a story of a bunch of compiled thoughts any way. 

But what a beautiful realization because without “me” I just “am”. A blank slate where anything is possible and I’m not tied to the chains if anything in my past. That’s the space of “being” people talk about. The love we are underneath thought. We don’t need these stories to survive. They just make us think we do. Again, they are only there because they think they are helping us. But the peace comes when we can let them go and realize there is no need to hold tightly onto thoughts, emotions, our stories so that we have a great story, a purpose, a meaning. We won’t cease to exist if we let the thoughts and emotions ride through us. We will actually being to truly exist.

This is the access point to peace regardless of circumstances. I'm fascinated by this topic so I teamed up with incredible DailyOm platform to create a donation based course called, "Peace Regardless of Your Circumstances". (Click on the title to access.) I hope  the peace you are looking for dawns on you. 

We wait.

And then we wait some more. 

We wait for permission from someone else to tell us that we are finally enough, lovable and worthy. 

It's not our fault that we wait. 

We have a brain. 

That spins in loops.

That has a best guess. 

It's a computer of best guesses. 

So it throws out it’s best computer guess. 

Wait, it says. 

Give your power away. 

Don’t find it within. Wait.

Get what you need out there in the world, it says. 

Manipulate, control, change, fix, them, yourself, the world. 

So that you can have. 

But that doesn’t feel right. 

And it never works.

No amount of the mind’s best guesses bring us to the inner self love we are looking for. 

It's a state of being inside of us. 

We must find it within. 

And then when we do, the outside reflects our inner state. 

We have it a bit backwards.

We innocently try to find feelings in the outside world first. 

I need them to tell me I'm lovable, enough, worthy first then I’ll know I am, we think.

But think about it. 

I bet in your life, no matter how small, people have said you were enough, worthy or lovable, but you pushed it away because you didn't believe it too. 

So that didn’t really help in a permeant way. 

Because it wasn’t in alignment with the trash in your head.

That was innocently passed down from other’s trash in their heads. 

It’s no ones fault.

It's just a whole lot of unconscious, unlovable, unworthy, judgmental thought energies no one has stopped to heal and clear. 

But guess what my light of lights. 

I see you. I know you. I am you. 

You are the brave one that came in to to put a stop to these old energies. 

You are the brave one that decided to find your lovable, enoughness and worthiness in a state of being within. 

You are the brave one willing to feel the dark to get to the light. 

And you might not have a clue how, but you feel a pull in that direction.

Me too. 

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(Originally posted 2/19/14)​

Man, did I learn something valuable today. I felt inspired to share with you because it's a beautiful lesson for us all that has the ability to heal the world.

Just like any other night, the crew (2 muts) and I, went for a walk around the neighborhood. I was daydreaming about gluten free, vegan fonuts and walking on the lawn of an apartment complex. My dog peed on the bushes. I continued to walk forward and heard a man shouting behind me. I intuitively knew it was directed at me but decided to keep on keepin' on. Then I heard, "Hey! I'm talking to YOU!" So, I calmly turned around. I didn't really hear what he was saying because he was yelling at me so much that I blurted out semi nicely, "Can you just please be nice to me?" He wasn't. He said something along the lines of, "You shouldn't be on this lawn, let alone letting your dog pee here. I work hard to keep this nice, etc. etc." From my point of view, it wasn't a house so I didn't think it was a big deal. If it was someone's home I wouldn't let my dog pee there, but for some reason my ego thought it was OK for us to travel on the complex's property. As he was yelling, I just kind of blankly stared at him taking the brunt of his anger with nothing earth shattering coming out of my mouth. After his rant was over, I walked onto the cold sidewalk and he stomped back toward his car. He was about to get in when something magical happened...

A quick side note. I am student of "The Course in Miracles." It is a metaphysical text in which you learn to let go of all of your blocks to love and return to it. It's your natural state of being. You work with your Inner Guide (your Intuition, Eternal Guide, Holy Spirit, your Heart, what have you...) to help you see love instead of fear. So back to the magic...

Something took over my entire body, my mind, my voice. This happens when you decide to surrender to God. Something bigger than me, a Divine Force, decided to shower this situation with pure LOVE. A total miracle happened. 

I shouted down to his car, "Hey! I understand You!" His whole being changed. The anger he was carrying dissolved. He walked towards me and the heaviness between us was gone. I let down my ego and spoke from a place of understanding, "I don't blame you for being angry at me. You must work really hard to keep this place nice. I was daydreaming and not thinking about where I was walking. Now I know to keep them off of this area. Thank you for letting me know. I totally GET YOU." He replied with a heart felt apology saying he had just lost his dog and he thought my dogs were probably great and he shouldn't have yelled at me. We both left apologizing and smiling and understanding each other. I allowed love in and love healed. 

Imagine I had just stayed in my ego. We would have both walked away angry, probably told the story to friends, continued the negative energy spiral and just stashed it away in our minds to rot. But because one of us chose Love, both of us benefited. Your healing will not only heal yourself but those around you. 

I walked away with two leashes in hand, smiling. God is amazing. When you can look at your ego head on and know that love is greater, you win. Love always speaks louder. Today and every day intend to see love instead. Pray, ask what it looks like, surrender to it. Be vigilant in choosing the road the less traveled. Let's make it the road we travel more. 

(Originally posted 2/16/14)
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Imagine if…

There was total and complete freedom in your life. Freedom. 
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Freedom from it all. Nothing to think about. Nothing to ponder over. Contemplation was a choice from now on. You could be like Walden at the pond, contemplating. If you wanted. Settled chest. Breathing muscles, moving muscles. Freedom. Water flowing, warm, up and down and swirling around. Healing the skin. Tickling but softly and soothing. Good. No guilt. Total and complete feeling of acceptance about it all, about every moment. About the past, the present, the future. Every noise, every person. Homeostasis. Existing as one, all the same. 

Equal. Stillness. Floating mind inside your head. Free. All free. Sitting softly smiling. No cares. All is well in the world. Repeated so many times before, but now true. Movement. Running, breathing, but feeling so good to breathe so deep and so hard, out of breath. Running. You want to run more and more and more and be free and there is no boundary. No stop. No fence. No gate. You can just keep going if you want. Like a drunken college run. Running for no reason but just to feel like a kid again. You see seashells and sun and crystals in the water. The sand is soft and you handprint in it is easy. Take your time, wallow, relish in it. Be there, time is nothing. It is all. So much space to breath and be and see and feel and let it go and surrender and freedom. Complete space and openness and joy. Clouds expressing their stories as you express yours. You’ve made it. There is a destination. This is it right here. Freedom. Satisfied. 

Full, nourished. Free. Hair down. Wild woman. Wild man. Dancing free. Spirit takes over and you sing so loud, off key moving your head and body with the words. Your hands and arms flailing with the words so that you can feel it all. So much feeling flowing through you that as you extend your foot as the song pulses downward and out. Extending out into the Universe. Pure love. Moments, but forever. Free. Delicious freedom. Worth the wait. But here now, funny enough. In your mind you're there now. Beauty. Love. Opening. Healing. Healed. This is it right here. Beaming from cheek to cheek. Wanting to share this with the world. It's possible. It's here. Surfers join us, smiling. We get each other. No need for words.

It’s just felt in the body. Right. Right. Nods. Cheers. Shared kombucha. Enough for everyone. Always enough. Plenty to go around. Always plenty to go around. Freedom. Beauty. Universal Love. Thank you for this moment of grace and plenty and allowing us this worldly human experience that is so heavenly. Your fingers continue to flow. Continuation of good. Waves crash, but gently. You can see your toes. Even if they are long and pink, they are there. They are yours. They belong to you. And you're free with them. Your free toes. Taking you out in to the blue. Standing amidst the water. In the middle. Surrounded by it all. So bright and so light and so free. And peaceful and completely fueled with energy. You could do anything. You will do anything. You're connected. You're free.